Monday, December 15, 2008
Pick yourselves up off the floor. You're not hallucinating or imagining things--it's true!
I am actually blogging again!
First things first--thanks to anyone who has continued (in vain) to check this blog week after week, month after month, wondering if I was even still alive. Not sure what motivated you to keep checking, but thank you. It means a lot.
I've had a lot of ups and downs since I last posted. Unfortunately, those "down" times were a major contributing factor in my not blogging for so long. For those who aren't aware, I struggle quite a bit with depression (and have for the past 9+ years). I'm here to tell you that it's a very real issue and not something that you can just wish away or ignore. I have so much compassion for those who struggle with mental and emotional issues. It's a triumph some days just to get out of bed and get the kids fed.
I have spent many hours in prayer to a loving Heavenly Father, begging Him to take this trial away from me. I keep reasoning with Him that I would be so much better of a servant if I didn't have this cloud hanging over me. I'd be so much more outgoing and serve so much more if this was something I didn't have to deal with on a daily basis. But in the past few years I've come to realize that it's BECAUSE He loves me so much that I am tested and tried. If life were a bowl of cherries, how would we ever stretch and grow? I look back on the times in my life that have been the hardest and realize how much I gained from those experiences. Although I don't think I'd choose to repeat them, I do stand here now grateful.
I'm not out of the woods by any means, but I can see the Lord's hand in my life--guiding me and nudging me towards better things. I've been able to feel a lot more in the past few months and I know that it's time that I stepped up a lot of things in my life. I've let a lot of things in my life sit by the wayside and it's time to change that. The people in my ward/neighborhood probably think I'm a recluse/hermit and anti-social based on my behavior since we moved here. I'm usually the polar opposite and I think it's about time to start being "myself". So to those of you in my neighborhood who think I've been avoiding them on purpose, please know that's not the case! Give me a call and let's do something! Sometimes all I need is a nudge to get out and I'm feeling much better!
It's also time to let some things go. As many of my stampin' sistas know, I LOVE making cards/being involved with Stampin' Up! It has been a wonderful creative release for me over the past 5+ years. But right now in my life, I need to focus on the MOST important things in my life---my little family and my faith. I have 4 young children that are looking to me to teach them all they need to know to make it through this crazy world as unscathed by evil as possible. I can't do that when I'm being sidetracked by other fun, (still good, but not ESSENTIAL), things.
I attended an LDS Women's Conference earlier this year, and one of the speakers said something that REALLY grabbed my attention. She spoke about a hobby/side job that she had that she really enjoyed. But she found that it started consuming most of her time and was crowding out the responsibilities she had as a wife and mother. She told us that she prayed for direction, and the answer she received was that her hobby would still be there waiting for her when those critical child-bearing/teaching years were over, or that her strong desire for this hobby would simply subside. I felt as though the Lord was talking directly TO ME. I only wish I'd had the courage to follow that council back in May, but I had already committed to not only attend Stampin' Up!'s yearly convention, but to personally head up a major shin-dig for 200 ladies during that convention.
But that's the beauty of the gospel of our Savior. He is ever standing at our door, knocking, and waiting for us to Let Him In. He wants us to repent and change and come to Him. He doesn't care if we've been wandering for a few months or a few years. He loves us and wants us back. He forgives us freely.
So...hopefully that helps you understand a little bit about my blogging absence. I've been wanting to start back up for a while now, but didn't know quite where to start. I actually had great intentions to blog on Thanksgiving Day, fiitingly rolling out the new title/direction I'm taking my blog in, but it just didn't happen. We spent time with family on both sides, including a sister-in-law who flew all the way from Connecticut to be there. But thanks to an INCREDIBLE Bishop who gave such perfect advice to us at church yesterday, I decided that I just couldn't put it off any longer and today was the day!
Thank you to all who made it this far--you're wonderful!!! I haven't decided how often I'll be blogging, but at the very least, I'll be posting once a week (instead of once a year!!!). Thanks again for those of you who have been so very supportive of my ups and downs...you can't begin to know how much I appreciate it!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Alex joined our little family at 4:16 p.m. The first thought through my mind after they handed him to me was, "Oh my goodness, they took my husband and shrunk him down to 20 inches!" He's the spittin' image of his dad and grows more handsome every day.
He is such a fun kid to have around. He's got a spunky personality and a great sense of humor. This story illustrates what a little corker he is: The other day after church was VERY cold and blustery (I used that word JUST for you, Diana!), but my other 2 sons wanted to walk home. I was inside the church oohing over someone's brand new baby and Alex disappeared. I figured he'd decided to walk with his brothers, so I drove home with Kenzie, expecting to see him along the way. When I finally caught up with Nate and Cam, Alex wasn't with them. Then from the very back of the van I hear a wicked little giggle, and he pops up and laughs his head off! He had been in the van the whole time and hadn't made a peep--hoping for the EXACT outcome he got! He continues to gloat about how he "got me good!" Oh how I love my Alex!
I went down to my "crapbook" room (as my 3 1/2 y.o. calls it!!) and whipped up a quick card for him. Hope it's not too 'girly' as I'll be taking it to school, along with balloons and treats for his classmates in just a few minutes.
Alex, my good man, here's a shout out to ya, buddy! Happy, Happy Birthday! We love ya!!
P.S.--I did do a drawing for the card I posted a few days ago. Ironically, I picked out the name of my cute friend Sara, whose birthday is today as well!!! Crazy, huh? I SWEAR I didn't rig the drawing! I'm going to go pick up something fun for her and drop it off along with the card. Happy Birthday to you too, Sara!!
Monday, April 21, 2008
And finally, my sweet Cam Cam has cornered me into giving him a solid date for when he gets a pet turtle (or two)!! He hounds me relentlessly on many things: how many more days til...(the next person's b-day, til we get to go to McDonald's again, etc. etc. etc.!), and he recently remembered that we promised the boys they could get pets once we moved in to our new house. Ummm, yeah. We moved in last June and we still don't have any pets!! I now have a firm deadline: there must be turtles in the house on the last day of school (hence the turtle-stamped countdown chain!!! 40 days left and counting...)
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Card Recipe for my Stampin' Sistas: Wild Wasabi & Groovy Guava ink and paper, Versamark ink, One of a Kind Stamp Set, Cuttlebug--Swiss Dots and Script, Hodgepodge Hardware brads.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
If I were more techno-savvy I'd know how to imbed the actual video right here. But we all know better, so here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_8kUTUIveyA&NR=1
PLEASE make some time in your day to check this out. It will inspire you to, as Tim McGraw sings, "Live like you were Dyin'."
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
you're feeling: overwhelmed
to your left: frig
on your mind: kids
last meal included: cereal
you sometimes find it hard to: stop
something you have a collection of: Stamps!!!
a smell that cheers you up: Sam's cologne
a smell that can ruin your mood: halitosis
how long since you last shaved: Sunday
the current state of your hair: undone
the largest item on your desk/workspace right now (not computer): calendar
your skill with chopsticks: pathetic
which section you head to first in the bookstore: children's!!
...and after that?: self-help
something you're craving: quiet
your general thoughts on the presidential race: scary
how many times you've been hospitalized this Year: none
a favorite place to go for quiet time: tub
you've always secretly thought you'd be a good: author
something that freaks you out a little: children dying
something you've eaten too much of lately: candy
you have never: skydived
you never want to: disappoint
I tag: my cousin Becky and anyone secretly stalking my blog!!
I have lots of pics to share, stories to tell, etc. but I've got to go pick up my Kindergartener right now so they'll have to wait.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Diana--here's a shout out to ya, girl! You rock! Hope you had a day as wonderful as YOU!!
I don't have a pic of her and I, but go check out her BRAND NEW BLOG (as in she created it this week!)--http://hyerhappenings.blogspot.com/. They have the darndest cute little family eva!!
And don't forget, "You're not getting older, you're getting better!!"
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Have a great night!
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
They were staying in a lodge that had cement floors and Nate really wanted to sleep on the top bunk. My hubby let him, figuring he'd be just fine as he's 9 years old and sleeps on a bunk bed at home. Sam woke up to a big thud and Nate screaming. He figured he was just scared from the fall and brought him in to bed with him. But when the painful cry persisted, Sam flipped the light on to check it out. The second he saw his arm, he knew it was broken. Apparently there's 2 bones right where he broke his arm, and one of the bones completely dislogded and went "up and over" the other bone--YUCK! (I know all you moms out there are getting queasy just thinking about it--I am!!) So they packed up as quickly as possible, gave Nate a blessing, and headed down the canyon to the nearest hospital an hour away. A HUGE thanks to Ben Romney!! Poor guy had to get up at 3 a.m. and drive someone else's kid down the canyon to the hospital (Sam didn't take his truck)! We owe you your favorite treat, buddy!
Friday, February 22, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
My stamping friends....your lonnnnnnng wait to see some creations will pay off tomorrow--I went to a fun stampin' get-together today and have some FAB things to show you!!
Hugs to you all!!
Thursday, January 31, 2008
I'm the person who is walking down the hall humming a little tune. I'm the one you hear coming around the corner in the grocery store singing to herself. When I'm by myself in the car, I'm belting it out at the top of my lungs along with whoever's on the radio.
Music moves me. It gets me motivated and going in the morning. It's my go-to when I need to tackle a big project. I guess you could say it's my "cuppa joe" since I'm not a coffee drinker! My husband has, on more than one occasion, come home to me dancing and singing with the kids instead of making dinner like a good wife should.
Music stirs deep memories for me. Just by hitting the play button, I can be taken to another time and place and remember details I would have otherwise forgotten. Some of those memories are bittersweet, but I'm still grateful for them.
I spent a bit of time earlier today revamping my musicplayer at the bottom of my blog to include many more of my faves. Ironically, some of my all-time faves still aren't in there because no one has uploaded them to the web yet and I didn't have the time (nor the computer-savvy skills--let's be honest!!) to burn a bunch of my CD's to the computer.
I've got a very eclectic group of songs on here--I don't think you could put me into one "category" of music. I'm all over the map from Enya to the Steve Miller Band to Country. Other than rap and hard rock, I'm pretty open and love A LOT.
So if you care to browse through, feel free. If you find a fave, go ahead and click on it and listen for a bit. If my style isn't your style, that's cool too--these are just the tunes that make my little heart happy!!
My little girl just walked in and wants to dance to my "sassy girl" music (as she calls it!), so of course I'll oblige...
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
Last night, the prophet of the LDS Church, Gordon B. Hinckley, passed away at the age of 97. He returned to heaven to be embraced in the arms of his beloved wife, Marjorie, who passed away four years ago.
I had the amazing privilege of meeting him on several occasions, as he was very close to my grandparents. He truly cared about *every* individual he met. His testimony of Jesus Christ was steadfast and his faith unwaivering. He had wit, charm, and a wonderful sense of humor. He was a true Christian in every sense.
This world has lost an incredible man and follower of Christ, but at the same time, Heaven has welcomed home one of its finest. I can only imagine the joy in heaven as he was greeted by countless individuals, including my grandfather.
And I know for certain that when he meets the Savior, he will hear those words that we all long to hear someday: "Well done, good and faithful servant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: Enter thou into the joy of thy Lord."
Thank you, President Hinckley, for being a true disciple of Jesus Christ and showing us the path we all should follow back home.
God be with you til we meet again...
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Sorry it's been a week since posting--we've had A LOT going on.
Unfortunately, not all of the goings on are good. We received the news that my Father-in-Law has advanced prostate cancer. They're praying for a miracle, but based on the prognosis, that's what it would take to save him at this point.
We've got lots of emotions right now. Since the news only came late last week, I think the main thing is still shock. He's only 59 years old. And there's a bunch of other things going on in my hubby's family right now that only add to the tension.
Sam and I laid awake for a long time talking last night, trying to make sense of it all--trying to figure out God's purpose in everything happening. All we came to is that there's a reason for everything, God is aware of us and won't give us more than we can handle (although I do believe he takes us right to the edge sometimes!!!), and most importantly, it has reminded us again of how very fragile life is and how important it is that we cherish every moment with our loved ones.
Sorry for the downer post. I'm just still swirling in a sea of emotion trying to sort through it all. Thanks for being there for me, even if it's only on-line. I appreciate all of your comments so much--you have no idea how they make my day. I'll keep you all posted...
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
I've got such a sweet hubby!!!
Today is my 33rd Birthday. After volunteering at the kiddos school this morning, I turned up my street and saw a van in my driveway. As I got closer, I read "Jimmy's Floral" on the side. Luckily, I caught him just before he was about to leave. He said, "Young lady, I have a whole bunch of roses for you!" He then hands me this gorgeous arrangement of beautiful red and white roses--33 of them to be exact. I've got the best DH in the whole world!!!
Birthdays are an interesting thing. When you're a baby/toddler, you don't even have a clue what everyone is doing with those silly party hats on and why they think it's so funny that you're eating cake. Then as a kid, you figure out very quickly that birthdays are the fountain of all good things from mom and dad. You beg for a big friend party and hope for lots of hoopla and money.
Then as you get older, b-days are fun, but not as big of a deal as they used to be. It's great to be remembered, but you also start becoming aware of the passing of time and how quickly life seems to be passing you by. When you become a mother, birthdays are all about your kids and knowing that *you* are now looked to as the fountain of all good things! Your own birthday sneaks up on you, and before you know it, you're 33 years old sitting at the computer sharing your random musings on life with anyone who happens to log on to your little corner of the world!
When I'm older (of course 33 isn't old!!!), I might start resenting this marking of time as it will just remind me how much time has passed by, but for now, I'll enjoy smelling the roses (all 33 of them--thanks Sam!) and enjoying every little bit of my life as I know it now.
Thanks for sharing in "my" day! (I'm off to my stampin' room to go play with all my new stamps & toys I've received over the past few weeks...I'll be posting my creations tomorrow!)